In 36 Hours

Every year, just before my birthday, I get what I call “the birthday blues.” I find myself in a bit of a funk— never particularly sad or upset— but it’s a time I like to withdraw and ruminate about the year past, the year coming.

Emotionally, the past few weeks have been the equivalent of the birthday blues on overdrive. I can hardly start to think about the things that have happened over the last year, and I certainly can’t begin to imagine where the next year will take me, or you, or any of us.

With the birthday blues I usually have the luxury of wallowing in my thoughts over days, lunches, and long walks. But the thing about working on this campaign is I haven’t really had time to think about anything. It’s just do, do, do. I relish the gasps of time I have to myself (walking to work, waiting for blogger to load photographs, the occasional moment I get out of my chair to stare onto State Street) and wonder how I will feel a day after the election. How I will feel in a week. A year.

This campaign, as much as I both love and hate every moment of it, has turned into something almost… well, human. It is this beastly friend I keep wishing would die, but when it inevitably does, I’ll be quite sad. I’ll even miss it. I almost don’t want it to be gone.

But in 36 hours it will be.

All I know right now is that we have the ingredients to win. I spent the last two days at Warner Park greeting GOTV volunteer after volunteer after volunteer. In a few minutes I'll go back again to help with today's shifts. Every single person who volunteers has their own reason for advocating a "No" vote. All over the state from Eau Claire to Green Bay, from Wausau to Milwaukee, people are coming together to put their all into these final hours to defeat the ban.

You know what? I think we'll do it. And I'll have plenty of time to ruminate after we do.

13 Comments:

At 8:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

...it is almost human and I am so grateful to everyone who has taken such good care of this "beastly" thing that will transform it into a beauty tomorrow!..thank you to everyone...

 
At 9:32 AM, Blogger Kent Walker said...

I keep reading the comments from folks who are for this amendment and they keep relying on the Bible for their support. First of all I applaud anyone who has a spiritual conviction and attempts to live a good life and follow the original teachings of love and support.

However, a religious belief (one of many out there) should not be used to define societal laws. Marriage may be a religious ceremony but it stops at that point. The benefits our society gives to help strengthen loving couples and families have nothing to to with one's religious beliefs. These are already called Civil Unions.

Not only that but if a person demands that we agree with this ban based on religious belief that we must start banning all the other behaviors that the Bible apparently decries as abominations. You know the ones. Don't eat pork, stone children for being disobedient, don't wear fabrics consisting of blends, don't touch the skin of a pig or cloven hoofed animal (there go all the Green Bay Packers, doomed to hell like us gay folk).. etc, etc, ad nauseum.

If you want to base it on the Bible, then take all of the Bible to do it. Don't cherry pick the verses you like. Also remember, what the bombers on 9/11 did, they did in the name of God. Obviously there are different opinions of what God wants.

So, to be fair, wouldn't it be appropriate to want to support couples, any couples who wish to live their lives together and have the benefits that everyone should have that strengthen the ability to protect themselves and survive in our society. This would the be "Christian" thing to do. I am also speaking of TWO people. Not multiple partners in a relationship.

Remember, it is a choice to bring more than one other partner to a relationship but it is not a choice to be gay. Since you are born gay, it is not fair to ignore that fact and create a sub or secondary class of citizens. People keep glossing over that little point. Also, animals don't have the ability to submit or say "I do" so I think that argument is just a little silly and has no place in this discussion.

I know I would never discriminate against straight couples and their desire to raise a family and attend church if they wish. I just can't understand why they don't want me to be able to have a safe and healthy relationship with my spouse (yes, spouse. We were legally married in Canada this year) and have the protections of the legal system just as they do.

It really makes no sense. It seems to me like a lady I spoke to recently. She is well into her 70s and when I asked her what she thought she simply said, "Well I never thought I would see the day that more hatred and discrimination were dished out in the name of Christianity than we have today. It is a shame and makes me drift further from those who claim to be Christian."

She went on to say, "besides, this second sentence has nothing to do with God or religion. It is only there to push political agenda and wrap it in a nice layer of hate to be sprinkled with a thin veneer of "God" to make it more palatable. What a bad waste of God's love that is."

I agree.

Yes, God loves me. And of that no one can claim a greater knowlege.

 
At 10:17 AM, Blogger Kevin said...

I agree with what you are saying Kent.

It still troubles me when I read an article and they ask a voter how they are going to vote. They say they are against gay marriage, but have no problems with civil unions, then say they will vote yes.

Come tomorrow, I hope more people will read, comprehend and make the right decision to vote no.

I will be praying for that tonight.

 
At 10:39 AM, Anonymous Wendy Howell said...

Having followed your campaign from, well, before it was really a campaign, all I can say is: WOW! You guys have accomplished so much in such a short time, and are doing an incredible job!

In Michigan, we had a shoestring budget, a wing, and a prayer. We beat everybody's expectations results-wise - but in the end didn't have the resources to mount a truly competitive campaign. But from your fundraising to your ground troops to your message, you guys have it together in ways I don't think any of the previous campaigns have. The real hope of victory in Wisconsin is an incredible feeling – and while it can't make up for the losses in other states, it certainly can help dull the edge.

I, sadly, don't live in Wisconsin; if I did, I'd be giving every minute I had to helping out. But what I do want all of you to know is that there are many of us watching from afar - including a lot of people I know in Michigan - who are in awe of the fact that you guys are within reach of a win. We are all waiting with bated breath for Tuesday night's results.

So, good luck and keep up the great work... You guys are so close… if your election day efforts are as strong as it seems like they will be, I think Wisconsin will accomplish what eluded us in Michigan: VICTORY.

 
At 12:29 PM, Blogger Kent Walker said...

Thanks Wendy.

I can say that I have not been able to volunteer as much as I would have liked. I have volunteered several times. I have talked to all my friends. I have written letters. I have blogged and just this morning I stated to my employer that I would not be in tomrorrow as I am taking off to help volunteer on election day. I don't have any more vacation so this will definately hurt financially but not as much as the possible ramificatons if the radical right has their way continues to discriminate.

I hope more of my friends will do the same. I know that I would not be able to get up and look at myself in the mirror on Wed if we lose and I didn't help out.

 
At 12:53 PM, Blogger Deb Dep said...

Very well said Kent. Thanks so much for so eloquently organizing so many if not all of the reasons to reject this amendment. If only all read and understand.

Thanks,
Deb Deppeler (in Madison, WI)

 
At 2:36 PM, Anonymous Debbie in az said...

Ingrid,

I just want to thank you again for your effort in this campaign. You've done amazing work and I know you've changed minds and hearts of Wisconsinites with your eloquence and courage.

I have faith that my fellow fair-minded Wisconsinites will vote NO tomorrow. Then you'll be able to ruminate and celebrate at the same time!

Thanks again -- to all the FW staff. My thoughts will continue to be with you all in the next 18 hours!

 
At 2:42 PM, Anonymous Debbie in az said...

Oops! bad at math . . . 32 hours? 33? Time change . . . plus 24 . . . minus one . . . plus through the party tomorrow night . . .

you get what I'm trying to say.

 
At 6:02 PM, Blogger Ingrid Ankerson said...

Thanks Debbie. And thanks for all your hard work on this-- even from afar!

 
At 6:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kent, you're the reason why there has been such an effort in support of this amendment. Your attempts to portray conservative Christians as radical right-wingers when many of us have opposed the amendment has almost my entire church voting for the amendment.

 
At 6:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just FYI, people use this excuse all the time. They say, if you ban gay marriage, you have to stone children, not eat pork, etc. Well, Jesus came, and there's a new law. If we Christians followed those laws in Leviticus, we'd be Jews, not Christians. So it is perfectly reasonable to say that in the New Testament, it does not condone homosexuality, and we are not expected to also follow the Jewish law. Pharisee, anyone? The Bible says what it says. Anyone (Christian) who thinks differently of it, or says "well I actually think this is OK even though the Bible says otherwise" has no spine. Either take it all, or leave it.

 
At 8:56 PM, Blogger RepSoccerMom said...

Hi Ingrid. I've worked really hard to fight this amendment as well. Regardless of what happens today, we have work to do on November 8 - maybe more work if the vote goes one way vs. the other - but more work just the same.

I believe in fairness and acceptance for all people and I want to live in a state that does the same. I am praying earnestly that we will prevail. As HOlly Near says, "I am open and I am willing for to be hopeless would seem so wrong, it dishonors those who go before us, so lift me up to the light of change."

We have raised awareness. People have talked about homosexuality and acceptance who never have before. I pray that we have awakened those who generally sit at home on election day.

I appreciate all the hard work that you have done and your staff, especially Josh Freker.

Tomorrow as well as today, I will not hide my relationship - I will not hide my love - I will not keep quiet any longer - regardless of the result. I call for all in the LBGTQ community to do the same. When we hide, They expect us to be hidden. If we fear, we have reason to fear. I will not hide and I will not fear. We are your neighbors and friends, your co workers and we sit next to you in the pews. We are not the others - we are you.

I will continue to fight so that justice for all prevails in this state.

 
At 9:04 PM, Blogger RepSoccerMom said...

Hi Ingrid. Happy Birthday. Thanks for all your hard work.

Regardless of what happens today, there is work to do tomorrow. Maybe more work if the vote goes one way vs the other, but more work just the same.

We have raised awareness. People are voting today that haven't bothered to vote in awhile. We have raised a collective cry of justice.

Regardless of what happens today, you have to have strength tomorrow. As Holly Near says "I am open and I am willing, for to be hopeless would seem so strange. It dishonors those who go before us, so lift me up to the light of change."

I will not hide my relationship. I will not hide my love. I will not silence my voice. I call on the LBGTQ community to do the same. For if we hide, they expect us to be hidden. If we are silent, we have no voice. If we fear, we have reason to fear. I will not hide and I will not fear and I will not be silent.

We are your colleagues, friends, neighbors, church members. We are your sons and daughters. We are you.

We will prevail.

 

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